MatthewCooke

wow i havent been to deviant art in a while.  i just uploaded some art.
if u want to reach me irl try email cooke.x@gmail.com

i forgot about deviant art.
i like it
i should come back here more often.

idk what to write really... i have shooting a shit load the last few months.  i have found that the economic downturn has spawned a whole new breed of clients for me.  its crap like wholesale clothing and designer knock offs and all the companies who produce inexpensive product who never had the funds to advertise b4$ have triple sales.. while the bigger companies have found it harder to sell big ticket items.. "GOOD FAST CHEAP"  most all of it is BORING crap that isnt worthy of deviant "art".  i find it really hard to find the time to update websites these days.

its funny reading my last journal entry about how broke i was being a photographer.. being a freelancer is like sink or swim.  the last two?months i have been so busy shooting that my mind is a blur.  and it seems like each day i was getting better and better shots adn clients were like giving me hugs and thanking me and i have been feeling GREAT,  i finally have $ again shooting...

HOWEVER

most of the commercial shoots i have to sign a non disclosure work for hire agreement so i dont actually own the pictures and most of the commercial shoots are so stupid anyways that right after i burn dvds i just delete all of the shots.  I guess its always been that way but tonight i was wanting to add some new shots to some websites and after going through old shoots i couldnt find one fucking cool picture.  so i was just looking at my da account adn the only pictures that i even like are all shoots that i did for art's sake for fun..like tfp stuff that i didnt get paid for.

hmmmm..

i havent really done tfp type shoots in years but i am really wanting to be creative adn shoot some cool shots again.  i am feeling creative and bursting with ideas. (none of them include tee shirts adn hoodies and hats)  pft. but i am feeling like a sell out and if i dont shoot something creative then i am not a "real" photographer".  i think i am feeling like a guy who holds a camera and pushes the button, " ps i was shooting a very aggresive rapper and he was getting all up in my shit and told me to "just stand there and push the button" but instead of getting all offended i said ok and finished the shoot and took my paycheck.. haha pss after the shoot he was like damn these are really good, and then i was like YEA I KNOW... then when i got home i deleted all the pictures.  pft.

anyways if you have actually read down this far then you should probaly get off the internet and go out and do something more creative.  i really have nothing to say other than commercial photography is something that they pay a good amount of money for because nobody wants to shoot it... and cool artistic photography is something that will never make me much money because that is what everyone wants to shoot.. hmmmm????  i am going to start shooting tfp stuff again for "art's sake"

ill bet thats why wedding photographers make so much money right...  booooooooorrrring.

luv
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if you are an artist like myself then you have undoubtedly felt the crunch of the economic downturn.  I am fucking struggling baaaaaaaad.  last year i was doing great.  this year i am barely finding enough gigs to feed my son jesse james.  i have thought about new ways to make money:

breaking and entering
drug dealing
collecting cans in a shopping cart
bank heists
spinning a cardboard arrow on the street corner
las vegas lap dances
train robbery
car jacking
lemonade stand
gay prostituion
kidnapping ransom
purse snatching
cattle rustling
running moonshine acroos the county lines
night shift at McDonalds
counterfeiting
guinea pig drug testing

dont be surprised if u see with my squeegy and newspapers washing car windows at the streetlight, and if you do see me then please tip big.  thanks.